Looking back on the time when I am still young in mind, in heart and in action, there’s a lot of differences in my action now, on how I think, I act and on how I respond to every situation in life. I grew up and still growing up at my hometown Aguilar. Living in our so called “mansion” full of happiness, noises, children playing/ my cousins, my mother and my father, my two enemies which is my siblings and my lola. I am a big fan of reading novels and stories, drawing and writing literary pieces like poems and short stories. For my 21 years of existence I’ve been dependent on my parents, until now, in every stepping stone/milestone I’ve encountered. We have a simple yet joyful living, we argue, we laugh, we shout each other especially my cousins who are so noisy, we bond, we eat together, together we pray, attend Sunday mass and most especially we enjoy.

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         Studying well is the best gift I can give to my parents. I’m happy seeing them happy in whatever big or small achievements I have from elementary, high school up until now. But this goal in my life is not a piece of cake, there are so many struggles, hardships, stress, failures and regrets to endure. Thanks God that I endured all of this that I’m able to conquer this challenges little by little. When I was in my elementary grade, I dream to become a lawyer someday, with great influence of my mother who did not able to finish this course. But everything change when I step on another year, which is my high school years. I’ve learned to look on the other side and views of life, that’s  why my goal change and becoming a teacher catch my attention. That time, I already imagined myself teaching and wearing teacher uniform, until now, that I am getting near to the success of my dream. During that time and up to the present, I admit it to myself,

 

             I am afraid to fail, because failure is like a depression to me that until now, I am still having a hard time conquering it. I made a lot of memories way back, most of them are happy and there are some which cause sleepless nights to me. My teacher scolded me in the front of the whole class because of helping and playing my role as a school’s president, that made me embarrassed, cry every night and false a fake smile whenever my classmates approached me. That time, I questioned myself for being responsible but the day came that me and my teacher make amends for what we’ve done and that teacher became one of the closest teacher to me, to the point that when we remember that scene, we’re just laughing into it. I never change from being responsible, and my opinion of being a leader is till in my action, but with proper communication to others.

 

              College years came and I already thought that to be so hard, and yes, I was right since I have no friends in my chosen school that I enrolled alone. As days goes by, being a friendly person, I made friends and create memories with them. I've learned to stand on my preference and on my opinion buts still when it comes to sharing of ideas, I am willing to change the opinion I have for the better acquisition of knowledge of the whole group. I can say that I can easily cope up with the group,change my attitude and my action. One of my best assets that I still practiced during this days, is being persistent and eager to learn more. I put a lot of efforts when I’m doing a task and I make sure to think twice or thrice before making a decision that just not revolved around me but also for the sake of the others. During exams, I master the lesson by reading it aloud and explaining it to myself, and I’m lucky because my friends are willing to debate with me just to review our lesson. In that way, I’m not the only one to benefit, but my whole circle of friends. Similar to that is when we are answering activities, when someone is having a hard time getting the main point, I am willing to help, and share the information I have.

 

             This journey might be stressful, but I have my dream, my goal and my future is in my hands. That alone or I should say myself alone serve as my motivation to continue, but I can also say that I am not alone, because I have my family, friends and people who believes on my ability and Him who guides me in everything.